Jcka’s Adventures

If only Papa Jack could read this entry I would write it this way:

My Dear Papa Jack,

    I would like to thank you for being a friend and a wonderful father in-law to me, and an awesome grandfather to my daughter Bianca Ann. I thank you also for being so nice to me and treating me as one of your own child.  I do appreciate all the golden thoughts that you have shared with me, for being there for me everytime I need someone to talk to about my husband.

   At this time we would like to be by your side to hold your hand–to let you know how much we love you and how thankful I am to be your daugther in-law. You filled the empty spot of my longing of my own father…You are always in my mind and in my heart. You are always nice to talk to seems like you got a thousand stories about everything and I learn so many things from you–just about anything…You are a cool father in-law!

      We could not make it tonight…  but my prayers and thoughts were all about you. I know you came to visit me at the same time you have your last breath…I felt your embrace around me…letting me know that you have to go.

    I have been in tears for almost 3 hrs now…I tried to hold my tears because I am sure you dont want me to be crying when you leave. But my heart is so filled with sadness at this moment. So sad knowing that I wont be able to hold your hands again, to spend time with you anymore, to answer my never ending enquiries about everything. To tell me the names of the wildflowers that you have on your yard. To show me how beautiful it is to live in the country side  with all those wildflowers.

    Wildflowers. Yes thats what you are to me. Wildflowers will always reminds me of you… I will be telling and talking to Bianca Ann about you—- she might be too young to understand about her Papa Jack . Billy and I- will see to it that her grandfather Papa Jack still alive in our heart and will be in our heart forever…

    We love you and sure going to miss talking to you. I will be looking up the sky to see you up there with all the stars everyday—twinkling upon me and my family!  Shining when I see darkness —-Just like as you have been since the first time I met you.

    So long my beloved Papa Jack— GOD grant your SOUL an ETERNAL REST! Amen.

With much love and prayers-

Jessica

  * My father in-law passed away in his asleep at around midnight TX time and 10 pm WA time. Billy call me around 10:30 pm just to inform that Papa Jack is gone. I asked him what time he said at 10 pm (WA time) I told him thats the time I was crying and calling Papa Jack name—all of a sudden I felt so cold and had a goose bumps all over my body. And I said to him Goodbye and its ok to go— than to be in the hospital bed- suffering.

    After me and Billy talked–we were both cyring he ends up comforting me–telling me its alright. Soon I hang up the phone with him. I did cry so loud as in… tapos  I heard a "thug" sound in our garage–natahimik  at natakot  ako. Siguro sabi ni Papa Jack enough and I do need to stop crying—-

     Billy asked me this afternoon around 3 pm that If i want to go to TX to be with Papa Jack before he passed away. I would love to but Bianca Ann have been sick–coughing and have a stuff nose for a week now. I am so worried to fly there with her condition might get worse… just like what happen last March last time we were there–she was throwing up. And Papa jack was not able to spend time with us due to Bianca Ann was sick–he is not suppose to be around with sick people coz his immune system was too weak.

     Billy told me too that he was able to talk to Papa Jack at around 6 pm, —letting him know that We (Bianca Ann and I) wont be able to make it to see him this time, that we do love him very much. Billy will be flying back to Austin,Tx from Millington,TN for the funeral this Monday. *

This entry was posted on Friday, June 9th, 2006 at 1:30 am and is filed under Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.